still there...

It's going to be really hard for me when Ashley has her baby. 'Cause me and her found out we were pregnant at almost the same time, and we were both so excited. I remember writing her a note at Dare to Care one night because she hadn't been at church in a while, and at the bottom I wrote "p.s. us pregnant girls gotta stick together!" She came to church that Sunday so tickled that I'd written that. I remember that day out at Lake Milton, at the church picnic, sitting at the picnic table talking about our "babies-to-be," wondering if either of us would have a boy this time. Turns out she is. And I want to be happy for her, and positive and supportive. I've always tried to sort of encourage her because I kind of know how she feels, being a single mom and all. I can't act bitter about this and ruin things. I need prayer, a lot of prayer.