Doctors (ugh!)

Today TJ went to see the orthopedic doctor. We were really nervous. I was so afraid she was going to need surgery to fix those ankle bones that have almost collapsed, and I wanted to prepare her for that but also not freak her out too much. Especially since we didn't know for sure that that's what would happen. Well as it turned out, she will probably need surgery eventually (to straighten her hips and stretch her hamstrings though, not to break and re-set her ankles and feet--thank God!), but there are other things to try first. They did a bunch of x-rays showing some potential probs, but nothing too serious (yet). So tomorrow I need to set up an appointment with another doctor to do a consultation about botox and some other procedure they can possibly do to straighten her ankles a little and try to rebuild the arches in her feet. I really hope that something works. It has gotten so difficult for her to walk the last few months, and it's hard for me to see her struggling like that and not be able to do anything about it. I pray for her so much, that God will alleviate some of her pain, and protect her a little from people's cruelty, and that she won't lose that joy and optimism that I love so much in her.
Monday I have to go to the doctor too, and I am very scared. I know that something is wrong and I just hope that it's like some sort of hormonal problem or something that can be easily remedied and not something serious. I guess my biggest fear is that I'll end up needing a hysterectomy or something and not be able to have more children. But I know I'm worrying needlessly because I am not a doctor and I have no idea what's wrong. Plus it's in God's hands, not mine and worrying won't help. I just need to pray and whatever happens happens. My faith will get me through, along with my wonderful family.
I am just so tired of doctors! I guess that's an awful thing to say, and I am very thankful that I live at this point in time and not 100 years ago when so many things couldn't be cured. I'm glad there are doctors to go to and that they have so much knowledge now. But between my dad's heart probs, my mom's foot, Leah's cancer, TJ's c.p., and now me, I just wish we could all be healthy for a while!