Now on to the finals...

The research papers are done! And am I ever relieved!! Of course I now have finals looming ahead but at least they're not "required 12-15 pages with a minimum of 12 sources, which much be approved books or scholarly journals, cited in MLA style"!!!
I have no idea what things are going to be like for me once this semester ends though. I'm afraid it's going to be too easy for me to sink back down into being depressed again because I won't be as busy and I'll have much more time to think about the baby. I had really looked forward to being pregnant at Christmas time, I might even have been showing a little by then. I had all sorts of cute little ideas like hanging a tiny stocking for the baby and putting small baby items in it and making little sugar cookies with "Allyssa" and "Jared" written on them in frosting (since we probably still wouldn't know if it was a boy or a girl yet).
I am going to try so hard not to be down in the dumps for the holidays. This is too special of a time, I won't let myself ruin it. I just need to focus on the children I do have, the husband I do have, and all our family and friends. We're having 2 Thanksgivings this year so that we get to spend time with both my family and his, and the "1st" one is this Sunday (after the church dinner!) with my parents, sisters--except Heidi :-( --and Grandma. I love to cook (and I don't get to bring much to Tom and Lynda's because Lynda always tells us what to bring and it's usually just pop or something) and have all the family over, so I'm really looking forward to it! Then of course there's the "real" (or 2nd!) Thanksgiving, and then Mary's baby shower, and then my mom's birthday... and that's just in November. Wow, I guess now that I think about it I will have plenty to keep me busy. And thankful.