Miscellaneous
Today was the last day of classes before finals, the semester is about to end. And while it's been incredibly difficult at times, I guess I'm still a little sad to see it over. Ed would just say I'm being a dork (and remind me that I'm probably the only person in the world who cried at the "Frosty the Snowman" show until I was 14!) but that's ok. We took a quiz in Earth Dynamics today that I only missed 2 on, so I'm getting A's in everything but Criminology--I'll be happy with a B in there. So considering all I've been through this semester, I guess I didn't do too bad.
Ed and I made a very important (and very hard) decision: we are going to wait until I'm done with school to have another baby. Thinking about it now, it really does seem to be the most responsible choice, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's what we want to do; we both want another little one very much. But I also want to finally finish my degree; as it is I won't be graduating till spring 2007--I started in fall 2000--so it's high time I had something to show for it! Part of it for me too was that I didn't want to feel like we were so easily "replacing" the baby we lost. I just kept remembering when TJ's bird died and we rushed off to Petsmart that night to buy a new one. The first one was all but forgotten, and while obviously a baby is more important to a bird it still kind of felt like a replacement issue.
Last night the girls had Christmas play practice at church; it seemed to go pretty well. A lot of the kids didn't know their parts yet, but I guess that's to be expected. I know that TJ and Karry know theirs, but they both read off the papers anyway, oh well. Little Mason came over and sat down next to me and started chattering away about all sorts of things: "gray vegetables" (from that project we did in cherub church a few weeks ago, long story!), and Frosty the Snowman (his favorite Christmas show) and cookies, and oatmeal, and how he knows someone who lives in Florida where it doesn't snow (lucky duck). I just love talking to kids; they're so honest and easily excited and I think sometimes they just like adults to get down on their level and talk to them like kids instead of always trying to teach them things and "talk down" to them. Anyway, I need to get going now because I need to make an early dinner so I can go to Kelly's play with my mom. And I have a long weekend of studying for finals ahead...
Ed and I made a very important (and very hard) decision: we are going to wait until I'm done with school to have another baby. Thinking about it now, it really does seem to be the most responsible choice, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's what we want to do; we both want another little one very much. But I also want to finally finish my degree; as it is I won't be graduating till spring 2007--I started in fall 2000--so it's high time I had something to show for it! Part of it for me too was that I didn't want to feel like we were so easily "replacing" the baby we lost. I just kept remembering when TJ's bird died and we rushed off to Petsmart that night to buy a new one. The first one was all but forgotten, and while obviously a baby is more important to a bird it still kind of felt like a replacement issue.
Last night the girls had Christmas play practice at church; it seemed to go pretty well. A lot of the kids didn't know their parts yet, but I guess that's to be expected. I know that TJ and Karry know theirs, but they both read off the papers anyway, oh well. Little Mason came over and sat down next to me and started chattering away about all sorts of things: "gray vegetables" (from that project we did in cherub church a few weeks ago, long story!), and Frosty the Snowman (his favorite Christmas show) and cookies, and oatmeal, and how he knows someone who lives in Florida where it doesn't snow (lucky duck). I just love talking to kids; they're so honest and easily excited and I think sometimes they just like adults to get down on their level and talk to them like kids instead of always trying to teach them things and "talk down" to them. Anyway, I need to get going now because I need to make an early dinner so I can go to Kelly's play with my mom. And I have a long weekend of studying for finals ahead...
posted by Amy @ 3:14 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:42 PM,
Terri said…
What a difficult decision! But it shows maturity, too, in weighing the financial and emotional strains that would be added as you try to complete your education. I am so proud of you, Amy, as you have not given up on your goal.
I want to assure you that even when you do have another child you need never fear guilt in trying to "replace" the one you lost. That little one will always be a part of your being .. .your love. I know as I continue to think of our little Joshua ... how old he would be now and how much he would add to our lives... especially when his birthday rolls around or when holidays ... family times come and go.
I have learned not to fear about little ones memorizing their parts for the Christmas program. It always comes together on the day of the program ... Parents want to show off their little ones and will not let them go up there unprepared. Still, some may forget their parts or refuse to say them but the message will still be delivered of Christ's birth. Your girls just followed the example of the others on the practice night which is to be expected. Love ya!
Terri
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