Family Peace

So yet another crisis has been dealt with, and it's back to normal life. Whatever normal is! My mom's out of the hospital now, doing somewhat well at home, although they are still smoking--after all these medical catastrophes you'd think they would be scared enough to quit. It's back to the routine here at home too. Friday I spent the whole afternoon cleaning...it was great! Yesterday morning I went to church for the first time in over a month. It was wonderful! I'd missed the people, the music, the babies in the nursery, taking notes during the sermon--I'd missed just being there. There's something about sitting there in church, surrounded by other believers, that I just find so refreshing and comforting, especially after all those years of trying to do things on my own, without a church family. I'm glad we didn't leave and go to another church. Sure, there are people there that we don't get along with, but when you think about it, isn't it like that in any family?! When I look at my own family, how Heidi isn't talking to any of us right now, and things are strained between my mom and grandma. Then I look at Ed's family, how it's basically split in two with Tom, Lynda, Kathleen and Leah on one side and Aunt Jo & Uncle Dan, Donna, Clyde, Vera & Curtis on the other (with me and Ed in the middle being Switzerland, I guess). But despite the differences, we all still love each other. And that is the conclusion I've drawn about my church family too; there are going to be people there that no matter how hard I try we just can't be friends--personality clashes. But I can still love them and pray for them and appreciate what they bring to the church. I've made peace with the situation--a peace that I know came from God, an answer to my prayers. Now, if only Ed could find the same...