A new perspective

I was dreading going to church Sunday, I really was. I didn't want to deal with all the questions about why we haven't been there, and have to come up with creative excuses. I didn't want to deal with all the same old problems that have hounded me there lately, the problems that have caused me to not even want to go. But all in all, things went pretty smoothly. I even talked briefly with "that person" I've been having problems with and got a pretty striking glimpse into what her life's been like lately--it made me feel incredibly selfish. The things I'm going through are nothing compared to what she is going through, and it made me feel ashamed of myself that I've been harboring such hard feelings against her. That night I prayed for her and her family, almost in tears, more concerned about them for a moment than for my own family. It's amazing how God works, how He turns situations around in ways I could never imagine. I realized that she's going through many of the same things I'm going through, battling the world as it tries to get it's claws sunk into her husband and kids. Just as it's trying its best to get to mine. So I definitely feel differently about all of this now. Rather than avoiding her I need to be her friend. In other news, I may get a job. Dr. Gregory told us yesterday in class about a position at the family court, monitoring kids who are on house arrest. She told us that the two big requirements for the job (besides being a justice studies major, of course) are wanting to work with kids, and not being afraid to go into bad neighborhoods. This job sounds perfect for me. It's exactly the kind of work I want to do. So I sent her my resume this morning and she tweaked it a little and told me she'd put in a really good letter of recommendation for me--I'm one of the people she had in mind for the job when she first heard about it. I want so badly to pray and beg God to let me get the job, but I keep reminding myself that it's not about what I want, it's about His plan for my life. And just like other things I've prayed for, some of which I've received and some of which I have not, if it's meant to be it will be. But that would sure be awesome!!